The safeguards were neglected
Although the risks were known
(The cost was prohibitive,
The research inconclusive)
And so it’s be unprotected
That I go to spend my hours
With you, Reactor.
So make fast the seals behind me
That guard the outside world.
Ring me round and draw me down
Into your hermetic chambers
Past the lead-lined doors in to
The glow of your great
And terrible heart.
If this is love, I am neither trained
Nor equipped to endure it
For you blaze and are not consumed
I am burnt but not made warm
You radiate as I decay
You will never reach your half-life
But the cancer in me is already old.
So tell me your stories and I will laugh
Sing me your songs and I will listen
Ask me your questions and I will answer
But show me your heart and I will reply
I am not here to love or to befriend
But only to wait and to watch
And to try to survive you.